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| by Alec Juarez |
now tell me
have you ever been witness
to
extended-release suicide
metered out s l o w l y over time
blackout nights numb faces
watching your friends fade
and i mean really fade away
bit by bit hit by
hit and never really satisfied
i mean never satisfied i’m talking
a chronic desire to escape the present
moment this moment right
here right now are you following me now
it looks different for everybody
in my case it came in 1 gram bags
20 dollar rocks and a mountain of empties
growing in my kitchen like mold
i got better i really did but then
i got way worse chopping up
china white in the bathroom again
i’m telling you
i’ve personally
seen the best minds of my generation
destroyed from the inside out
but never no i would never
call it madness no if anything
they’re icarus-types
no this world wasn’t too much for them
they were too much for this world
i still remember the day Al died
shot himself in the head with his dad’s gun
behind an elementary school late at night
kids found him during morning recess the next day
he’d been teaching english in thailand
saw some fucked up stuff
his note said people just weren’t nice
enough to each other in this world
he wasn’t wrong.
II.
well they say that your heart is a muscle
the size of your fist
i guess mine’s out of shape
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my favorite part is all the plagiarism
ReplyDeleteYes, Alexander Juarez. The famous Latinx poet whose mother is a Midwestern white, and father is from Spain.
ReplyDeleteThis is the worst shit I have ever read.
ReplyDeleteNot sure you want to platform a white guy who claims to be latinx and queer to excuse his inappropriate behavior towards women of color and women in general. Doesn’t look good. Spanish Rachel Dolezal. A white guy from a fairly wealthy midwestern suburb who has taken advatange of black, brown, mentally ill, and homeless women for his own sexual gratification. Literally evil. He claims he’s also a crack or heroin addict. He tried each drug like once, and claims he’s an addict to garner sympathy. In reality, he treats his own brother and friends like guinea pigs by pressuring them into doing drugs he ordered from the darkweb. When they overdose he cries because, “it could have been him”. When it works out, he claims that he paid for the drugs and they owe him $$ because he let them try his drugs.
ReplyDeleteAlexander Juarez is a rapist.
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